Bad blogger

Yes

I have been quite the bad blogger lately 

But in one way it's good

It means that my real life is full and busy

Instead of writing about my life 

I am actively living it

I do aplogise though

For not replying to comments 

For not keeping up with your blogs 

And for generally being MIA

It's hard to believe that the summer season is nearly over 

The town I work in is a seaside town 

So the population explodes during the summer

And is like a ghost town during winter 

As they say 

You have to make hay while the sun shines 

So everyone tries to make a buck while they can 

It seems like five minutes ago that I started working 

And now it's nearly over 

I can't lie 

I am really going to miss it

The people 

The guests 

My co workers 

The structure 

The routine 

Not to mention the money 

I know that I need to be smart 

And have things lined up for autumn 

Whether that be another job

Or a course

Something to keep me out of trouble 

As we all know that the devil makes work for idle hands 

Georgina has told me that if something comes up 

She will keep me in mind 

So I am grateful for that 

I really have done my best to be a reliable and hard worker 

As I often say 

It has taken me a lot of hard work

To get to the point where most people start off 

Just to get to the starting block

I've had to fight my way through the maze that is addiction and disordered eating 

Just to be the same as everyone else 

But hey 

That's life 

Some people just have to fight that bit harder 

Although things are going well

I still have a lot of work to do 

Especially around my intake 

If crisps and peanuts and chocolate are junk food 

Then I pretty much survive on junk food 

I can't lie 

I don't eat enough fruit and veg

In fact I don't eat any fruit at all 

At work 

I have what ever is going 

Which could be anything from a fry to bangers and mash 

But hey 

At least I'm eating 

No? 

Well

I'm still alive 

So I must be doing something right

But this week

I had a sudden panic that I had gained too much weight 

I have nothing to base this information on

I don't have a scales 

And my clothes still fit 

Do really I have no evidence to support this 

It's nothing more than a feeling 

So I think I'm going to ask my doctor up weigh me on Monday 

Just to ease my mind 

Is this good idea?

I don't know 

I guess I will find out on Monday

Anyway 

This was just a little post 

To let you know that I am here 

I'm ok 

I'm alive and kicking 

Working 

Living life

Loving life 

Making mistakes on a daily basis

But learning from them too 

In looking forward to closing one chapter of my life 

And starting another 

I'm excited to see where life takes me 

It never ceases to amaze me the direction that life takes me 

And I am blessed to have wonderful people around me every step of the way 

I love it!!!!